The Other Side of Fear

I took the bus past my former life today. I craned my head and could just see the back of my coworker through the second-story window. I had a sudden desire to get off at the stop and say hello. It’s the weekly Thursday meeting and the whole team is in there. They’re probably talking about IT issues and new demands from the client. They’ll be working out solutions and discussing office politics. The urge to acknowledge the past begins to fade as the bus continues and the office passes through my line of sight.

That existence I once had seems so long ago now. In this box, in that routine. I shattered the box and discarded routine to explore with eyes wide open. To see what’s on the other side of fear. To discover my aspirations and inspirations in the hopes of forever changing, learning, and evolving. Each second of this adventure will bring something new and something different to respond to.

“For a star to be born, a gaseous nebula must collapse. So collapse, crumble. This is not your destruction, this is your birth.”

I’m thankful for the corporate experience, yet I’m more thankful for the funds I saved. I’m even more grateful for courage, persistence, and determination. Sometimes the opportunity presents itself and all you have to do is walk through the door. It’s that simple and yet that hard.

And still the trek continues.

2 responses to “The Other Side of Fear

  1. So happy to read about your bus ride through PDX. You are such a beautiful writer, I feel as if I’m along for the ride! XO

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  2. The hard part is finding the right doors and then having the courage to go through them. You certenetly have the courage and the ability to find the right door. I am very proud of you!!
    Love you, Dad.

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